“I’m watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin’ over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we’re gonna do it, come on do it right”
~ extracted from Gwen Stefani’s 4 in the Morning~
How strange that this song says everything that I want to say right now.
A guy friend once told me that you should never give yourself 100% to another person, because when that person leaves you, you will be hurt so badly. So in order to safeguard yourself, always keep, like say 30% of yourself. Never reveal everything to another person, totally.
Meanwhile, a female friend also once told me that the secret to happiness is to find a guy who loves you more than you love him, as this will ensure that he will ‘worship’ you.
Maybe I am too naive, maybe I believe in something that doesn’t exist. And maybe I haven’t found the way to find a balance. But for now, I cannot accept those things my friends have said. Because how on earth do you keep a part of yourself from the person you love? How can you keep a part of your heart locked away, as though you’re stashing away some cash, for those ‘just in case’ days? Is safeguarding yourself from being hurt a justifiable reason?
I do not understand. And perhaps, because I do not and cannot understand this, I am singing that Gwen Stefani song over and over again.
el that you're not here 'cause I would be 
